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Aug
26
I Miss
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I’m not delusional when I say this, but sometimes I really miss the feeling of innocence that I had when I was 12. Not that I was that innocent but there is a simplicity that exists before adulthood. You know that feeling when you have a day that is carefree and sweet. A day when you just enjoy the time you are spending with someone without the complications of alcohol or sex or any of the more adult like behaviours. Without the worries of work or anything else.
I had one of these days a week or so ago. It was so amazing. A day when I just had a relaxing, worry free day just enjoying the scenery, the food and beauty in the world. I am determined to have more of these.
I really love life and love the people that are in my life. I think if we take the time to just enjoy the goodness and happiness in the world we would be much happier. Forget the alcohol, forget the parties, just get away and relax with nature. It’s really difficult to explain the feeling but it is achievable. I wish I could explain it better but I can’t.
I think too often we spend our time dealing with the day to day problems and stresses that life throws at us. We end up with a busy calendar or just exhausted. This is not what life is about. Life is about family and spending time with those we love. Take some time and just remember what gives you true feelings of peace. I say peace because people often think they are the happiest when they are busy or partying or the centre of attention. But the reality is we are at our happiest when we are at peace. When do we feel the most at peace? When we are just spending simple moments with someone we love or simply by ourselves.
Work out when you have those peaceful happy moments and turn it into a whole day. Truly the most amazing thing.
Aug
22
Peering into……
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Well yesterday we here in Australia had an election and the day ended with a hung parliament. I’m not sure how this will turn out over the next week or two but I will say irrelevant of the outcome both major parties need to admit to the people they have failed. When you have an election within a two party system and both parties average 50% it has to be a sign. When half the country don’t want you then you certainly have to think seriously about it.
My opinion is simple. We have two major parties whom are both full of bullshit (I know, such a surprise in politics lol). What do I mean? Well I think there are a lot of factors that affected the outcome but generally we are sick of the lies and propaganda. All the public really wants is for politicians to come out and say what they really believe, what they can achieve and what they can’t, in realistic timeframes.
I don’t want promises that they won’t follow through on or use an excuse when they don’t achieve. I want strong policies. I may not agree with them but if those policies are transparent I can make an informed decision. I read through a lot of the policies that were out there prior to the election and to be honest within the two major parties I liked probably 50% of what I read. I will talk about my preferred party at a later time and talk about why.
I’m not a huge fan of politics but I have strong views on policy for this country and what I think. Whether others agree with me is not the point. Even if I am right or not is not the point. They are my views and I will stand by my decisions. You will never get one party that gets everything right, however a party that is responsible and tells it how it is will be sufficient. The thing I see is that political parties seem to forget that they have a responsibility to do what is right, fair and just. Yes they need to represent the people but they also need to make unpopular decisions if it is the right thing to do.
Unfortunately in the two party system we have one leader who seems to use his bigotry and sexism to gain popularity and another who seems to promote the Christian views whilst living in sin (doesn’t make much sense). Funny enough is that this leader has no problem accepting preferences from a formidable party that has an openly gay man at the helm.
Right now I think we need clear policy and direction with a no bullshit approach. Bring it on!
Aug
15
The Debate Continues
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We are having a continuing debate around the issue of gay marriage around here. The debate is because it is such a hot topic at the moment (as usual) and looking at the different opinions in an objective way.
The debate is due to the fact that views are diverse not just in the straight world but also in the gay world. So where is the real issue in my mind at this point. I keep hearing the argument that marriage is a biblical tradition or tradition for straight couples and I can see where people might think this. I mean in the past marriage has been traditionally seen between straight pairs. The argument that this should remain a straight tradition seems rather slim to me. The reason being that just because the word has a historical meaning doesn’t mean that it can’t change, just look at an old dictionary versus a modern one. Also marriage is a deeply personal thing and has been performed over the centuries by non-religious people. Christianity isn’t the only instigator of marriage. In fact less and less people utilise a religious leader to perform marriage. So really that argument is void.
Also the government’s decision in Australia to maintain that marriage is between a man and a woman seems to be more a political stunt than a fair decision. I mean we have a political state that means politicians are not allowed to have personal opinions but only the opinion of the party. To avoid problems they more and more make the statement that they personally agree with the party’s policy or stance but there is no room for a different view unless they are given the ok for a conscience vote or view. So politicians are really screwed. The funny thing is there are many other religious based areas that are ok to disregard. We have a Prime Minister who technically is living in sin which is not allowed. We have Ministers who are openly gay which is not allowed. Married people cheat (more about cheating in an upcoming post) which is not allowed biblically. We live in a country where religious organisations put enormous pressure on political parties to do what they want. However we apparently live in a country where there is a separation of church and state.
When will politicians look at doing what is right and ensuring that discrimination does not exist. If you are going to make some decisions based on religious beliefs than make all of them based on religious beliefs. However sometimes politicians need to not follow the money but do what is right. Otherwise they are just followers and not leaders. Show some balls and do what is right.
Jul
17
Challenges & Baggage
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One of the hardest things in life is to truly be honest with oneself about how you feel. For me to be completely honest I will have to admit that the challenge I have is to not let the baggage I have collected from my past infect my present. The difficult thing in that is to balance what is baggage and what is just my belief system.
One of the biggest things I have been confronted with that is definitely from past experiences is my beliefs when it comes to alcohol. Being involved in a past relationship with an alcoholic and alcohol also impacting negatively on other relationships has left me with a lot of anxiety whenever alcohol is involved in my life through the people I know.
I’m not and have never been a big drinker however generally I have no issue with a few drinks. Where I have a problem is when it is more than just a few drinks. I do inevitably wonder whether people who drink excessively or frequently are just trying to run away from something, however I will never really know.
The point being that I have a problem with it and I am trying to work out how to overcome the bad experiences of the past. At this point in my life I think I need to surround myself with people that are mature and responsible. I really have no time for people that go out a lot, get drunk a lot or act like a teenager, when they really should be past that point. I can honestly say they can go for it but stay the f**k away from my life.
I have very strong views about some topics and this is one of them. You will find several posts in my blog about alcohol and the people that are in my circle. The people that I want in my life are responsible, mature and honest. Don’t say one thing and do another. Doesn’t cut it.
As far as the baggage goes I will work through it eventually. It’ll just take time.
Jun
13
Pride & People
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Well it’s strange writing about the weekend when it feels like it’s still happening. This weekend is a long weekend and it’s only Sunday. Also I’m finding it difficult to keep track of days at the moment. I’m actually very disorientated. I think with the move and being on holidays. Also having a week off work and then having to go to a conference and then having another week off has thrown me all out of whack. So on Tuesday I will fly to Hobart for four days for a conference. I’m actually looking forward to it, although I would much rather be here. Although Hobart will be freezing. Luckily I’m staying at the conference venue which means I at least can choose whether to go out in the cold lol.
Yesterday was a pretty good day. We went to Pride yesterday afternoon. Interesting, I should have been more observant because someone said it was like going to a Facebook party with the number of people in attendance who are on your FB friends list lol. I was not really in the mood to be observant although there are a few people I would have liked to catch up with but didn’t see. Probably my own fault. Events like Pride are good, but you really could spend an hour or so there and be over it. Which is pretty much what we did. However it was definitely worth the trip. From there we went to the Wickham which was a little slow. Not being into clubbing it was good to go to a pub. So it was nice. In the end the whole day was good.
I’m more an observer when I go out. What I mean is I tend to observe people and behaviour and see what is going on. I guess it’s why I am quite happy to sit in a cafe and observe people walking by lol. The thing I noticed yesterday is that although it’s good to do Pride and events like that I really am not at home in this setting. I think I’m just much more comfortable in events that are smaller and more intimate. I guess that’s why I enjoy nights out at dinner or the movies or the like. I have so much more fun when I am at dinner with a group of friends or a night at home with the same.
I still like the change sometimes, even if it is only for the observing factor. Anyway, the rest of the weekend will be fairly quite but as usual my brain is going at a rapid speed with things I want to write about. Let’s see how many of them will get started but sit in draft for months lol.
Jun
10
The Anniversary
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Well today is officially the one year anniversary since my life changing relationship ended. It may not have been the last relationship but it was long and it ended badly. So it is probably the one relationship that took the most to recover from. At the same time, it was really a life changing relationship and I will remember the good in the relationship for far longer than the bad. It was a draining relationship because communication was never really there. Unfortunately J’s answer to everything was to ignore it and wait for it to go away or simply pretend it doesn’t exist. Unfortunately in the end if a relationship doesn’t have open communication then it really can’t last. Being involved with someone with a high level of aspergers was always going to be tough but I knew that from the beginning and was willing to deal with those issues.
Unfortunately even though I was committed to seeing it through in the end he wasn’t. It was heartbreaking and really the way it ended (very sudden) took it’s toll on me. It took a very long time to move on and during the healing stages I unfortunately made some bad decisions including dating when I shouldn’t have. As can sometimes happen after a relationship ends you eventually find out about the lies and deceit that was going on and that just made the hurt even more painful. However as time went on the hurt became less and I was able to forgive. Since the breakup I know that J has unfortunately continued to hurt people and I just hope that some day (and I’m sure it will happen) he will be able to recognise what is truly important and be happy.
There is no doubt that I will always love J deeply. I may not be in love with him but the love I have for him will be there forever. I accept that and will be there if he ever needs me, however my hurt has gone and I have moved onto better things and people. I have realised that there are good people in this world who would never intentionally hurt you and who are loyal and caring. I always knew they were out there but I’m beginning to discover them. What I have found is that by surrounding myself with good people, more good people follow. Ok, there is some trash in there but I quickly remove the trash lol. I believe that the universe has been good to me and I look forward to the future. It is shaping up nicely.
Jun
09
In a new home
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Just an update to let you all know I have settled in my new home. There’s a few issues like a malfunctioning air-con but it should be fixed soon. I love this place and I’ll post some pictures soon. It’s also nice to be in a new city. A fresh start is always good. I only have to make one more trip back to the old place to finalise the handover and say some goodbye’s. Although my new home is only a couple of hours from the old it really is a new world. I am looking forward to meeting all the new people and catching up with many of those I haven’t seen a lot of in the past due to the distance. I’m sure I’ll see a few people on Saturday at Fair Day but it’s only a matter of time before I see everyone else. Lol, all it will take is a visit to Asian Fusion and I could catch up with everyone at once.
Other than that I will be off next week to Hobart for a conference so that will be from Tuesday to Friday. Then I have a full week off before going back to work. So I will get back to posting regularly as much as possible. I certainly have lots I want to post about, damn being opinionated lol.
