If you ask people I come into contact every day they will probably describe me as being strong and always able to deal with emergencies etc etc. I however also get terms like stoic. I’m not sure if I like that but that’s the way it is. Generally I am viewed as being someone who doesn’t get caught up in excuses and emotions and just likes to get the job done.

The problem with that is people seem surprised if I melt down. It doesn’t happen often in the public sense but I can tell you it does occur lol. I may have this way of dealing with things that may make me appear stoic or whatever the word is but I am probably more fragile than anyone would expect in reality.

Seriously do people think I don’t have meltdowns or have difficult times like everyone else. One friend said it to me perfectly one day. He said “You are more delicate than most particularly when it comes to situations you have a personal connection to, but in a work situation you can be straight down the line”.

That’s it really, I am not a different person at work but work only gets to see one side to me. They don’t get to see that like everyone else I am as fragile as the next. I guess it’s true that I am easily affected by things that go wrong in my personal life. I am the kind of person who finds it really difficult when there are problems in my relationship, in fact to the point where I struggle to deal with anything else. I cope just enough to hide it to the untrained eye or ear, but I fall apart when things are not good.

I am very much a private person as well and this blog is as public as I get and even then anything really really personal is only mentioned to the Inner Circle. But if the outside world want to think I’m tough and stoic than that’s ok by me. Why? Because the people that really matter know the real me.

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