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Archive for September, 2009
Sep
27
Beach & Dessert
Posted by: | CommentsWell the weekend was as usual great. With it came a lot of time for me to think about my life and my world. Like everyone I guess we all live in our own world somewhat. I will be attending a work conference very soon and will have some time off work afterwards to do some major reflection which is just what I need. I haven’t had anytime off work since the breakup and I know I need it. Whilst writing this post I received an email from a dear friend which has again given me the kick I need. I will write more about my inner self soon. For now a few pics from the weekend.
It was such a nice weekend. Above are a few pics taken at Manly. I find this space very relaxing and we just strolled up and down until the wind got too strong.
As everyone knows I love food and although I can eat just about anything I also get cravings. I always say I’m worse than a pregnant woman. So even though I had heaps to eat for brunch I needed more so we decided to take a stroll to Freestyle. Sitting outside we started with some fish and chips and some dips but I was only interested in dessert. So we ordered a couple of desserts. You should definitely check out their site. Whilst eating, the dust storm started to take over and although it wasn’t as bad as the last one it still started to irritate my eye’s. The service at Freestyle was excellent, particularly the tall asian waiter with a strangely american accent. Must have studied American English. The waiter was exceptional and didn’t stop smiling the whole night lol.
After dessert it was a nice stroll back to the house and quite amazing to see so many drunk people at about 8pm in the Valley. Not a pretty sight. Quite funny since places like the Beat and other clubs were only just opening their doors. Actually it made me think about alcohol and I’ll write about that next. Anyway, I’m off to shower.
Sep
23
Are People Afraid of the Best?
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I was talking with someone recently who really got me thinking. First a little about this guy. He is successful, beautiful and about as real and genuine as they come. He’s the real deal and single.
We got talking about why he wasn’t in a relationship because he seems very much the relationship kind of person. The response included the fact that there is not a lot of quality out there and even cited an example where a guy he was interested in stated that if he got fat he would get dumped. OMG, this world is really screwed up. But the thing is when we got into it it seems that a lot of people are afraid to date the real guys.
Why? Apparently they are rare. So when they meet someone who is real and loving and generally nice they freak out because they don’t believe anyone exists like that. So they feel that it’s a too good to be true scenario and run for the hills. I can relate to this. It’s not that anyone is really too good to be true, but it is true that people are not used to meeting guys who are real. I’ve even heard many say that if they are treated well they run because they are so used to being treated badly that its what they are comfortable with.
This kind of thing really messes with the balance in the universe. It means that the guys who really deserve to meet someone are usually meeting Mr Right but he’s getting scared off because he’s found the right person lol. OMG!!!
Although this was a little bit of a light conversation it does make you realise not only how much the world is screwed up but also how much people are to. I think this will lead to more indepth analysis but I need to ponder these thoughts for a while. I will return with more.
Sep
20
Weekend Roundup
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Well the weekend was gorgeous as usual. I didn’t do anything special but it was this fact that made it good. The only shadow on the weekend was a little annoyance which made me feel quite violated. I mean I don’t really care but it did piss me off a little.
I was not at home this weekend, but while away I knew my mother was going to have visitors which was only my sister, her husband and her husbands parents.Now none of them had seen my place so I expected they would probably be taken on a tour of my house whilst they were visiting. What I didn’t expect was for my life board (which is where I keep memories of my life and things that mean something) to be hit lol. What I mean is it was deemed not appropriate for my sisters in-laws and a couple of pictures were removed. Neither of these were bad. One was a photo that was hidden under other photo’s so was fine and the other was a picture of my ass, which was quite hot lol but yet tasteful. I guess this made me feel quite violated. My home so if people are going to visit then accept what is in my home or don’t visit it. I just felt that this was my house and don’t touch it. I never made a big deal about this but it did trouble me.
In other weekend news, I ate a lot which isn’t unusual. It’s worth me mentioning two meals that I had. One was at this obscure little Japanese place on the Gold Coast. It was hidden away in an arcade and my guess is that it was targeted at the local Japanese community. That is one reason why I loved it. I have no idea what it is called but the food was spectacular. I have to admit it was the first time I had been served a raw egg with a meal but willing to try anything I followed the waitress instructions and the meal was great.
On the flip side of this, I have always promised to give you an honest opinion on food, so I will admit I was unimpressed with the meal and service that was dinner. After eating a few times at my favourite Indonesian restaurant in Brunswick Street Brisbane called Jakarta, I thought it would be good to try the little pizza place next door. It was called something like Johnny’s Pizzeria or similar. I’m one of those people that like table service and this place doesn’t offer it but hey I can live with that. After ordering a couple of small pizza’s and garlic bread and some drinks, we sat down. No problem. The first thing to arrive was the garlic bread. Now if this was really garlic bread I would be surprised. It was more like a french stick with some margarine on it. I could have done better myself. Then the pizza’s arrived and although they were ok, I would have to say they were very average. Not receiving drinks we had to ask for them. I also had coffee which although made correctly was shocking and poorly made. Tasted more like instant. The bottle of iced tea was served as a bottle. No glass, no straw no nothing. I won’t continue about this place but I can say this isn’t a place I would go back to.
I will have to talk about great French Pastry in another post, but I do have a few other things I need to get done tonight so I’ll come back to it. So I will write soon when I have a little more time.
Sep
20
Beautiful Reply
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Yesterday I received an email from a dear reader and friend. The one thing about this person is he always seems to be able to time his emails exactly at the time when I need them. This time I thought it was one that I would like to share with you because I believe these wise words may strike a chord with others. So please read this and let it sit with you for a while.
You are a stone sitting on the beach. The waves come one after the other – again and again. over time the stone will be worn down and become dented or soften. Water can move mountains, rust iron, put out fire, water always finds a way…The good thing about feelings and emotions is this …They come, like the waves. At first it may seem like a right old slam of water on you and knocks you on your bum.As subsequent waves come, you know they are going to come, and you can better prepare for them in hindsight. And the next hit isn’t as bad as the last. Until the wave comes eventually and nothing happens at all.It’s like polishing a diamond. Every cut is specific and every polishing is good. Our life is that diamond. It is constantly under the wheel of refinement. Every issue that comes up and passes by, we polish the gem. Every time you swipe a cut on the gem, the gem gets much more beautiful. With each passing day of emotions and feelings we polish the diamond.Emotions like dreams and nightmares come and go. You feel something today, or dream something at night and you have a nightmare, and you go about your day. You go to bed and one night after another the nightmare or dream doesn’t return… time passes and you find that you haven’t had that dream or feeling in a while, we become desensitized after while, and emotions and feelings don’t hit us as hard as time goes by.A little pain reminds us that we are human, too much pain and we end up in fear. Which can turn into fuck everything and run syndrome.Recognize the feelings for what they are and let them go – the sooner you can do that each time the feeling comes up, the faster you will work past them, until it becomes like rote for you. The shorter time it takes you to let go of a particular feeling or emotion will determine how much you suffer because of them.Let Go – (quickly) – and let the universe do the rest.Stay on the path.
Sep
18
The Rollercoaster Hit Me in the Balls
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Just when you think you are doing well on the rollercoaster of emotions, it comes back down and smacks you fair in the balls lol. Since my breakup I have been through hell to work through the emotions and pain that came from being used the way I was. I have got to a place that’s really good, with real people in my life and it’s nice.
However it doesn’t change the fact that I miss HB and although I can think very rationally about it all there are still days that are hard. There was a quote I placed on FB recently which said :
“What deep wounds ever closed without a scar?”
It really is true and it’s what made me think to myself and realise I am allowed to have days like this. I mean I have had three major relationships in my life and this one cut me so deep that it’s only natural the scars will be much more intense. I have accepted that. I guess I just hate these days. There is no doubt I still have a lot of love for HB and although I love him it doesn’t mean I like him.
Days like this don’t happen too much so I feel that it’s ok for me to vent sometimes. I do have great people in my life and am very happy with how things are going. I do have a great life. Today was just one of those bad days.
On an exciting note, I have been sent lots of chocolate to review on here. It’s really good so stay tuned for my honest opinion.
