Archive for January, 2010
Jan
26
Birthday
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For some reason everything I do comes down to food. I so should weigh double the 60kg I do lol.
It was my birthday on Saturday and I will say that it was probably the best birthday I’ve ever had. It wasn’t complicated or overly busy. Just good food, good company
There is something about birthday’s that I just love. I think I might everyday to be my birthday.
Well as long as I don’t have to add a year to my age each time.
Jan
26
Touch someone!!!
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The title may be a little deceiving but I’m finding that recently there a lot of friends having emotional struggles. In particular I have noticed this with one friend who has been going through a lot of turmoil. I would do anything to help him even if it’s only to listen. One of the reasons I feel for this situation is that I can feel the pain just because I know him really well. In many ways probably even better than himself lol.
I realise due to his own stubborn ways and inability to actually take a stand I probably won’t get called into action lol. Oh, well some of it probably has to do with the fact that there are some unresolved emotional feelings between us but personally I think that is what makes us understand each other so well.
On another note, I’m going through a lot of change at the moment. I am finding myself in a particularly strange place. Everything is good and it’s not a bad thing but I see I have a few very busy months ahead. Many of the changes I see as a positive thing but nonetheless will take a lot of energy. They need to happen and I definitely see how much it is needed so I do think that 2010 will be a good year. I am taking control of my life back and it feels great.
My focus this year is on a new and improved lifestyle and an increase in the quality of peeps around me.
Jan
18
Life and Change
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I have got to a point where I have been craving pain. After a lot of the hell that was 2009 I decided to make sure 2010 was a good year.
Now of course I can’t guarantee that it will be great but I do feel that it will be a turn around year. The trash has all but been disposed of from my life and it’s filling with beautiful people and opportunities.
It’s way too early to talk in more depth about any of the opportunities due to probity or is that too many people who read my blog know me, but already over the last several months and even over the last couple of weeks I have met some beautiful people.
So stay tuned for more and thankyou to all that have shown me that beautiful genuine people are out there.
Jan
17
Victims
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Isn’t in interesting how different people handle situations. When I have a relationship breakup I tend to only ever say positive things about the ex except of course behind closed doors with those I implicitly trust. Even then I tend to protect the ex’s just to show some respect to the time we were together and the love we had.
Recently I heard of someone who had been through a breakup and one of the couple was out there telling people the most amazing stories of how he was kept as a prisoner whilst his boyfriend was out every night with his friends. Those that really know this couple know this is as far from the truth as you can get but I guess that doesn’t matter when you don’t want to take responsibility. It’s obvious I guess that he’s in a place of needing to feel like the victim. Maybe he thinks it will get him more attention and the sympathy will make him popular but I just don’t understand why it is necessary.
I guess it’s a sign of true insecurity when you have to lie to get people to like you. It’s one thing I find a lot of in Western culture. This lack of respect for people. I know that sounds strange but over the years I have noticed that Eastern people seem to show a lot more respect towards their ex’s and a lot more loyalty. That’s just my experience. I’m sure others would have a different perspective.
The thing I was thinking in all of this is in the end it will be him that loses because a half mature person will see this behaviour for what it is. I just wonder sometimes why people find the need to play the victim. Show some integrity and move on. Live a good life and be happy.
